This week we really almost broke up, I had found an apartment and said the words. But then he surprised me, wants to do the work, wants to keep trying, said that though the last two years have been hard he loves me, sees the progress that I am making, and is proud of my accomplishments.
And I really never thought I would hear that, or him acknowledge that his fears and no response have been driving a wedge between us. So the move is on hold, we are trying one more time. My long run was rough again today, but hopefully next week will be better.
Yes, the most stressful/busiest time of the year at work, selling my condo, the boyfriend business, and marathon training. What we are capable of is sometimes amazing.