A race?

My morning started with push-ups, a four egg white omelet and two pieces of turkey bacon (from Trader Joes - great flavor, but a little too salty).
Sadly I have to report that the goal of three training sessions wont happen this week, but after meeting with the gym management today I am feeling pretty hopeful for Wednesday.  I stuck to the rest of my goals today though, and worked in a 2.5 mile run with what was left of my lunch hour.

Back at my desk I was CRAVING chocolate, I had to force myself to eat my lunch and not run out for sweets!  Lunch, snack, and a 'fun' handful of hot tamales - how did that candy sneak in!???!!!  I literally haven't eaten any candy in maybe two months?  That is an accomplishment in my workplace, so the guilt/disappointment out weighted the candy delight. :(
Anyway!  I think I am going to sign up for a 5k to do on my birthday!  This one actually:
http://www.runscared5k.com/
I have done one other 5k, but I was walking it with friends - this time it is just me, on my birthday!  I think I am going to register tomorrow!!!  :)
My goal for the race?  No walking!

Frustrated

After such a great weekend (dinner party - now a huge fan of cranium, what a fun game!) I am still feeling like I have a ton on my mind.
I have been working out with a trainer for a month and a half.  Running at 5 am not every day, but several times a week.  I have cut my diet, increased protein and weight lifting, been pretty good about calorie tracking, and I haven't lost a pound.  Sure, I've gained some muscle tone, but I'm not seeing any great results. 
I have let myself quit this 'battle' so many times over the last three years. It is hard to keep trying because while I remember losing the first 80, I am having a really hard time doing it again. 
Maybe it is fear of the unknown, fear of not being loved even after all of that work.  I have been told that I should want to do this for my health, to take care of myself, and even that seems hard.  Maybe what is holding me back is all in my head, but I am still here trying.
Goals for the week of 10/10:
Workout with a new trainer three times this week
Three additional gym /cardio sessions
Take a yoga class
Pumpkin farm with friends this weekend, remember to take pictures!

TGIF and weekend workouts

Checking in!  I did pretty good this week, but have some workouts to get in this weekend! 

Goals from this week (10/03):
Two sessions with my trainer - I actually did three!  Unfortunately next week I have to start with a new trainer.  Here's hoping this one will be as tough as the last!

Four morning runs - I did one... ugh, need to work on this,  I want to be up to running with my Dad in December!

Five POP palates videos - zero, will have to work these in this weekend

Track my food every day, and stick to my 1500 calorie goal - I have been a  rockstar tracker this week!  Need to keep it up over the weekend.

Flu shot on Monday, take extra vitamin C this week - check!  I think it made me a little run down, and I ended up getting a little burned out on the diet/exercise plan.  Feeling better though and looking forward to some great workouts this weekend :)

Buy ticket to Peru!!!! - Done and done!  Expensive, but the rest of the trip is going to be pretty cheap so I am just going to go with it.  :)

This weekend I am hoping for two good gym sessions, a trip to the farmers market, and some good reading time - I have a huge stack of library books to work through!  Lol... I know, nerdy! Lol...