Sunday, January 17, 2010

Sorry for the lack of posts!

I'm still here, only smaller. :)
Yesterday I was officially 75 pounds smaller actually. I don't really want to post some of the worst pics, but here are a few that I don't (or didn't at the time) hate:

The first was taken at my heaviest, my best friend's wedding in 2004. The second was taken with my friend Beth in Belize, 2007 (about a week before I met David). My weight has fluctuated a lot since college, but I look at these pictures and feel like that girl was drowning in fat.
Don't get me wrong, I didn't feel that way at the time. The second picture is of a page in my photo album, I climbed to the top of those ruins. I was running and walking with friends several nights a week, I was fairly fit for my size, but just didn't realize what I looked like.
It is weird looking back.
I still have 40 pounds to go to reach my goal, and I weigh about 15 pounds more than I did in high school, but I can run a mile faster than I did in high school, I can run longer, and I wear a smaller size. It is weird to think of yourself as smaller than you were in high school.
It is also weird to find myself not looking for a reward, not feeling like I need to eat something because I have done such a good job, not feeling like I need to buy anything, or do anything special. It is weird not craving the stuff you know is bad for you. I am happy with the changes I have made in my life, but I guess I am just not used to them yet. :) I wonder how long that takes?

1 comment:

Jaime (Embracing Balance) said...

What an achievement! Congrats.