Monday, January 23, 2012
You see, though I weigh just over 200 pounds now, I have lost 80 pounds. The thing that motivated me to lose that first 80 was just that I was so tired of hating myself, so tired of being uncomfortable in EVERY circumstance, but I’m not that girl anymore, I hike and bike, I RUN. And now I don’t know how to find the motivation to keep trying to lose weight. I read all of these things about loving yourself enough, taking care of your body and what you put into it, my partner begs me to be healthy for a long life together, but that 80 pounds was two years ago, and for the last two years I haven’t lost anything, I have fluctuated within the same 5 to 7 pounds. I feel like if I could just get to 190 I could really make it, but that just seems so far away.
How do you decide to be thinner than you have ever been? All of the women in my family are obese, I don’t have any idea what I would look like, what my life would need to be like. I read lots of fitness things, I workout like crazy, can lift like one of the boys, I have muscles. No, scratch all of that, I have MANY things to be thankful for, grateful for, and even proud of… but how do you decide to be something you’ve never been before?
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